I've seen this movie at least ten times.

If you haven't seen Vanilla Sky, it goes a little something like this: Guy has perfect life--girls, glam, cash, and owns a successful magazine left to him by his crappy father. He sleeps with hot girls and has great parties. Everyday is a fun day. Until he meets the love of his life. He has this fantastic night with her and they stay up all night talking and watching t.v. and then a horrible accident happens and his life changes and he doesn't know what is real and where his life is going and it's so good because it's Cameron Crowe and it has a soundtrack and it has these fantastic one liners like: "I will tell you later... in another life... when we are both cats." or "Look at us. I'm frozen. You're dead... it's a problem." And some of the scenes will blow your mother fing mind. I mean, there is this one where they're in a dance club and the laser lights and the camera angle and the soundtrack and the people and it feels like I am there dancing at my favorite place and I want to just be them and I just want to be these characters and... and...

OK. See. I've seen this movie. A lot. But for some reason... this time was different.

You know how you can watch a movie or hear a song or read a book three or four or seven times and each experience can be the same? You enjoy it. It fulfills you. You go on with your life... unless something has happened in your life... and has changed the way you see...well, everything.

Then you hear that song or read that book or see that movie again and because you have changed and your perspectives have changed... the movie has changed. The scene that you never really got before totally makes sense. Or... or your empathy for a character, empathy that you never had for them, is there and you see it through their eyes and it's like the movie is brand new and better and something feels different... you feel different... you feel like you get some things... you feel wiser.

This is why I am a writer.

I believe that the things we do and the things we show others and the things we create and the way we perceive things make us better. See, it might not make us better the first time we see something or read something or hear something, but nothing ever comes that easy.

There are things in life we are not ready for. There are some scenes that we keep reliving over and over. There are some dialogs that we hear on repeat, but it is not until that moment where we are the wiser and that life experience has gained up on us where those scenes and dialogs and our lives start coming together... start making sense.

And like a movie you fall in love with all over again... you can start falling in love with your own life. And that is a damn good ending to any story... Hollywood's or your own.